. Silent Screams .

`Anxious__*

2009-12-19T18:32:00.002+08:00

Okay, here's my update. (:
Last week, I went for the Marriage course with him.
We were both nervous at first especially the morning session.
However, the evening session was much more relaxed.
Oh yes, we took the course in a private academy.
So we need to attend only one session & that's it.
& that cost us $300 including our 2 certificates of course.

Just a few days ago, he bought me a simple ring.
Fairuz did helped out to decide which design.
I was quite happy but worry over the big financial issue.
So in short, today, his mum & himself is coming over later.
You know, to talk about marriage issues & stuff.
So I will update more once it's confirm okay?

Lotsa Love. <3

`Left Aside__*

2009-12-03T22:12:00.002+08:00

Well, here I am, back again after 2months.

The reasons for not updating, busy or just plain lazy.

Okay, right now, I am really down.

So before these tears really begin to control me,

I should as well, start typing and let it out.

I don't know why am I so XTRA emotional the past few days.

Is it because of PMS or just because I was expecting too much?

I was obviously counting to my birthday since last month.

I thought I will be able to celebrate it at least with someone.

Anyone. Family, friends. Doesn't have to be someone special.

But well, to my own disappointment, none.

I know I'm used to not celebrating it.

But hey, I do have feelings. I do want to feel special.

It's been like years since I really went out and celebrate my birthday.

I really wanted this to be special. Since it's my 21st.

I purposely made no plans. Just in case.

But all I did was I went to school for my OA & phonics course.

I went home after that. Still having no plans.

Wiwik & Sakinah did gave me a surprise at the MRT.

Still, it didn't managed to bring my spirits up again.

I went home. Mum was there watching TV as usual.

I couldn't be bothered anymore. Cos I was on the verge of crying.

So I just locked up my room & sleep the whole evening.

Woke up at night to watch my favourite show & eat.

I went back to my room & tried to sleep but failed to do so.

I kept on thinking & thinking till about 2+am.

I felt so NOT special. To even anyone.
Even he, did not make any time for me. Haish.
So here I am, wishing myself a 'HAPPY' 21st birthday 2days ago.

`Mixed feelings__*

2009-10-10T14:32:00.003+08:00

Yes. I am having a mixture of feelings.
At times, he can make me feel so happy.
Yet other times, he can leave me crying.
At times, he can make me feel secure & calm.
Yet other times, he can make me feel frustrated & irritated.

The first time I get to know him, I had no intention of being more than friends.
I was too hurt already. & I was happy being single & alone.
Eventhough, at times I felt lonely & yearn for someone's love so much.
But as time goes by, little did I realise that this feelings for him have gone this far.
I hope, it can be controlled & it won't drift further so much.
I don't want to be hurt again & again.

He's nice to me. But then again, I'm scared it's only for a short while.
I'm scared he will change & show his true colours.
He always make sacrifices & have been patience with me.
& I'm scared he will lose his patience & get bored with me.
Cos all my ex-es are all like that. They were only nice in the beginning.
Then, they will change from a faithful & loving person.
To someone unfaithful, angry & uncompromise person.

No matter how good he is that he have shown me.
& how his sister has tried to convince me of his good behaviour.
I still have this insecure feeilng. I'm so scared.
Yet at times, I just wanna let it all out.
I want to be loved so much & also loving a person with all my heart.
Why this time round, it seems so hard? Why?
Sometimes, I blame myself. For being stupid, naive & so hard-headed.

Last time, I used to be so naive in love. So so naive & soft-hearted.
Always crying to the guy whenever they leave me.
Crying & doing stupid things whenever I had a break-up.
I used to sacrifice so much for a guy. Loving them with all my heart.
Spending every bit of my time that I have. Faithful to them.
Till I deleted all my guy contacts & stopped going out with my guy friends.
Like how they asked me to. & yet what did I get?
They get bored with me & went out with some other girls.

& now, I'm the one who is so hard-headed.
Refusing & trying to avoid love as much as I can.
I know I'm hurting him with all my words.
But I'm doing this for my own security.
I want to be in love deeply. But I'm scared to do so.

Seeing him reminds of the OLD me.
& I know how much it hurts him like how I did last time.
Which is why I blame myself for being like this.
Am I really wrong? Shoud I really be this way?
Am I selfish for being this way?
Cos just to keep myself secure, I'm hurting others?
But when I'm so nice, guys tend to take advantage.
So what should I do? I'm confused. :(

P.S: I hate Kamal. He's such a procrastinator.

`My Silent Screams__*

2009-10-01T20:08:00.000+08:00

God. It hurts so much. I can't take it any longer.
I've been crying since afternoon just now.
Mye eyes are in pain right now. Haiz.
I really hate you right now. Don't you bother me again.

For the past 2 wks, I've been asking you to go & check.
But you never did. You didn't make time for it.
You know how I am looking forward to this trip.
& you just have to blew it away don't you?

I've been planning for this trip so hard.
Been calling up the hotels to check the latest check-in timing.
Calling up the ICA to check on your passport.
& all I get from you is you can't make it for the timing.

Seriously, it was a total disappointment & stress for me.
Just to handle all these things. It's stressful.
Plus, with the release of exam results which was a total sucks!
My GPA drop further to 3.7 lars. Haiz.

I can't type anymore. My brain is now jammed.
Toodles aite.

`Speechless__*

2009-09-24T20:16:00.004+08:00

Guys. I wonder. What do they really want from us.
I don't understand guys. Really. I'm so hurt.
On the verge of breaking down again. Hate myself.
I don't need anyone but I hate when all these are happening to me.

One of my ex wanted to patch up. Hmmm.
However, to me, it's lame. After not liking that someone.
Then he's saying all these to me. It's BULLSHIT.
I'm not someone you can forget when you have someone.
& then you can simply come back to me when you don't have anyone else.
I'm SO NOT gonna fall for that sweet words of yours okay.

& I freaking hate LIARS. I hate guys who just give empty promises.
If you can't fcuking keep to that promise, might as well you don't okay!
My ex-es seemed to have these problems. Promises that they can't keep.
Promise that they change, forget their ex, faithful to me.
In the end, fcuk all! They NEVER CHANGE. NEVER FORGET THEIR EX.
WENT CLUBBING WITH SOME OTHER GIRL & LIED TO ME.
CONTACT THEIR EX. STILL WEAR THE RING THEIR EX GAVE.

You know what?! I don't fcuking need you! Guys like you should just extinct!
I'm BETTER off without you okay. Go & fcuk yourself aite!
Hmmm. I think I should go & relax my mind & myself.
Tomorrow, I have to go work for F1. Sorry for my language aite people.

`Left Alone__*

2009-09-21T00:34:00.003+08:00

I was browsing through my friend's engagement photos.
Gosh. Deep inside me, I'm so envy of her.
She seems to have the ALMOST perfect life doesn't she?
While here I am, struggling in every bits & pieces of my life.

She was my sec school friend. Her 1st r/s didn't work out.
& now, she's already engaged with the 2nd boyfriend.
Me? Countless of broken r/s & still struggling to trust guys.
Luck is not with me I think. Haish. I'm speechless.

As I looked around & see my closest friends. They are so ahead of me.
One is married, one is engaged. One is about 3yrs plus r/s.
One is 8months r/s & I hardly went out with her anymore.
I know I shouldn't be rushing into this kind of stuffs.

BUT! I have my own reasons. Others are going after their dreams.
But one of my dreams is to have my own dad to walikn my wedding.
I want both my parents to be there to witness my solemnisation.
Mind you, they are not getting younger. Mum is 53 and dad is 59.

I know I have done so many mistakes last time.
I hope that future husband will guide me to the right path.
He's the one who will open my heart & be my everything.
My husband, best friend, companion, guidance...

He will be the one who will show me my new world.
I will not just be a girl and a daughter anymore.
But a wife and a mother. A new level of being a woman.
& I'm so looking forward to that aight. Hmmm...

Mum has been asking when I will be getting married.
It's so hard to answer her that question you see.
I want to but how can I? When I don't even have anyone.
Mum has agreed that she's okay if I were to solemnise at ROM.
Then we will sanding at a later date when we have enough money.

Not only was I left behind in the marriage aspect, but education as well.
I see my friends who I knew back then in Normal Technical stream.
They are now already pursuing their Diploma right now.
But again, here I am, still pursuing Higher Nitec in ITE.

I knew I chose this path. I love being in ITE. Great people & management.
But... I don't even know whether I'm able to go poly after this.
All due to financial problems. I've been waiting for 3yrs you see.
It's not as if i flung my 'O' levels & Nitec. I did well. Haish.

So basically, I feel so down right now... I cried when looking at the photos.
Was I even jealous? She had a secure job with a Diploma pursuing Degree.
Her fiance is a Police Coast Guard with a car & a bike. But the greatest is...
Her fiance is a very nice & patient guy. Never once I heard they had a big quarrel.
Never. For their first 9months of r/s, they nevery had any quarrels before.

& he always have surprises for her. Last year Feb, I went out with them.
I remembered he apologised to her that he was not able to go out with her for V Day.
We were in the car. & there he was giving her a bracelet from Lee Hwa Jewellery.
On V Day itself, he delivered a bouquet of roses with cake if I'm not wrong.
So before their engagement day, they went to celebrate...
& there he was again kneeling down with the ring & proposed to her.
SUPER DUPER SWEET lars. Haish. I wish I had the same luck as her.

This is the result from a Facebook quiz I just took.
A quiz on "What Do I Need Most In A Relationship?"
"Understanding & Patience ".
Although you're not willing to admit it openly, you are very aware that you can be a very difficult person. You're a suffering soul and sometimes lose control of your emotions. Both your biggest wish and greatest fear is falling in love. Your heart desires a lifetime companion, someone who is understanding and who will never give up on you.
This is SO true.

`Finally it's OVER!__*

2009-09-15T20:29:00.002+08:00

It's been exactly 2 months since I last updated.
Woah. Haha. Finally have the time to update you see.
Cos since school reopened we were so busy.
With projects, exhibitions, tests & examinations.

So learning corner was a success. WAFFS Photoshop! (:
I hope it can help to bring up our previous layout project.
However, LE paper was SUPER hard. HR was okay.
I did well for HR CA also. Thank God. (:

Anyway, eventhough everything is finally over.
I can't help myself but feeling stress.
Stress about exams results and also about my family problems.
I feel so restless & cried over it every now & then.

Well, I've not been talking to my 2nd sis for about 2 yrs now.
& now she's not even talking to my mum.
Every time I see her, I'm speechless. She've changed so much.
It seems like I don't know her anymore. At all.

My past seems to be haunting me once again.
Please let me move on & be a better person than last time.
I admit I have done a lot of mistakes back then.
But without those mistakes, I wouldn't be a wiser & stronger.
Just like what I am right now. (:

To wrap things up, I just wanna wish all Muslim.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. (:
Jia yo! Just another 4 more days to go! =D

`Finally!__*

2009-07-15T21:36:00.001+08:00

Oh wow. I know. It's been a long time since I updated.
Well, I've been busy & yet at the same time slacking? =D
I came back from Cambodia on 28 June.
29 June - 5 July was a total slack for me. Haha!

I shall never forget the memories I have over there.
It's really awesome! The moments we had with the kids.
& of course the bonding we had within our group.
The stupid joke we created ourselves. The eating sessions. (:
& yes Fairuz! Congrats on both of us for clinching the female titles. =D
Me - Most fun-loving female; Fairuz - Most hardworking female.
For guys, Bing2 - Most fun-loving male; Ah Chai - Most hardworking male.

Anyway when I went for the NDP combined rehearsal on 4 July.
I did quite a few mistakes. Cos I forgot the steps lars. Haha.
& worse still, we had real life audience! Damn! & OMG!
The costumes were a total suck big time. Haha.

School reopened on 5 July. It was okay.
It's just we are totally packed with assignments here & there.
Plus my weekly NDP & CCA. It's CHAOTIC!!!
Serve me right. =P Haha! On top of that! F1!!!

I had F1 Merchandise Crew training last Friday, 10 July.
It's quite boring but yet at the same time happening?
I mean the training structure was boring.
But luckily the students & the trainer herself is superb.
So which makes it lively lars of cos. (:
& Fauzi & me got the title of 'Best Learner'.
It's weird since I was not that serious throughout the training. Hees.

Tomorrow is Harry Potter release. I'm so gonna watch it.
But not yet sure when. I'm LOVING HARRY POTTER!
WHEE!!! Hahaha. Okay. Shutup! I know. (:
Pls wish me luck for NDP, F1, assignments etc.
& of cos my love life. Hahaha. But I'm quite happy being single.
Am I? Really? I suppose so. LOL. K till then. Toodles!

`Mixed feelings__*

2009-06-14T15:48:00.002+08:00

Finally! The 2 projects are over & submitted on 12 June.
Gosh! It was a total depression to complete it.
I didn't sleep the whole Thursday night just to type out the write-up.
I spend the whole 5hous just to think & type it out.
A total of 16 pages lars seys! It was a nightmare!

So most of us turned up in school looking like a zombie. (:
Luckily, our teachers were understanding. Hehes.
The skit was hilarious. Wonder if I have an acting potential. LOL
Anyway, we went to lunch at J8 KFC. Till about 12.30pm?

So we went back to school. Cos we have the trip briefing at 2pm.
Fairuz & Nana was already sleeping. I was busy planning.
Till I myself eventually doze off also. Haha!
The whole thing ended about 5.30pm. I went back home.
& I slept like a pig till the next morning.

Yesterday NDP was great BUT tiring.
I was unwell after that. My hand was shivering already sia. Damn!
Anyway, I'm SUPER nervous today. I'm going aiport later.
I'm gonna miss everyone here. Haiz... I'm happy yet at the same time sad?

Anyway, toodles... I wanna get ready & meet Wiwik... (:

`Imy__*

2009-05-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

Boy, u caught me off guard. U blew me away.
Eventhough at times, u're so unpredictable.
Nonetheless, I still love you anyway.
Baby, you're just so irresistable.

Imy boy. I really2 do. You touched my heart & soul.
When you were there to brush these tears from my cheeks.
When you were there to hug me in your warm arms.
I shall nvr forget that moment. & I thank you for that.

I love you boy... & I miss you...

`Hurting Deep Inside__*

2009-05-06T00:27:00.003+08:00

I hate myself. Why am I feeling these way?
Why am I just feeling more hurt day by day?
C'mon Qida. Wake up. You can't be with any guy.
You're simply not good enough for any guy.
U're just another passerby in his life.

I kept on crying & crying. What's wrong with me?
Damn myself. I should not like or love anyone.
That's it. Haiz. I ain't no good to have anyone's love.

`Love__*

2009-05-05T18:55:00.003+08:00

Why is it so hard to forget him?
Unlike some other of my ex-es.
I still remember the memories we were together.
How we were being crazy together.
How he helped out in my school work.
How he taught my niece.
Every lil thing he did for me, I cherished it till now.

He's one of those who accepted me the way I am.
Some of my ex-es asked me not to be my crazy self when I'm with them.
Others, just ignore me when I'm being my crazy self.
But with him, he's being crazy with me. He doesn't care what ppl think.
He brings me to know his friends & all. Oh god.
Why are these tears rolling down again? I still love him so much.
Pls give me strength to go through this. I want to move on.

Why is he still treating me like a gf when he meets me?
When he is the one who wanted the break-up?

`Dance photos__*

2009-04-19T03:20:00.003+08:00

Random pose

Lock Darlink & Me (: Haha.

Crew FORMAL photo =D CUTE right?

Me at ITE Macp's dance studio

Really. It was just a one pic scandal only. SUMPAH. Haha.

Nu' Crew + B'Delicious = Nu'Licious? Or Nu'Crew + Soul'D Out = Nu' Soul'D?

Bestie Sakinah Darlink & me (:

Psst.

SDO's MANAGER tau. Cey! =D

My educators + dancers. (:

Last pose before performance?

At our booth for CCA Open House (:

`Best Day Ever__*

2009-04-14T23:22:00.004+08:00

First of all, I would like to wish Wiwik a...
Happy 19th birthday. (: Cey!
Org tu dah tu tua lars seys. Hehs.
Maklum lah dah jadi minah dangdut. =P
Anyway, I pity her. Cos she had to dance today.
Haha. Birthday girl suppose to be pretty.
But she went home sweaty cos of dance comp. (:

A picture of Wiwik with B'Delicious 2.

Wiwik, sorry we do not have any surprises for you today.
You will okay. That's for sure. (: Yay!
Anyway, we had our Back to Basics dance comp just now.
It was quite a tough comp actually. :(

TMC's choreographer is from FIS/Vougelicious.
& that choreographer is the friend of the judge who is also from FIS.
Snickers is a collaboration of SFB, Vouge, Dylis & Fantastic plus some others.
The other 2 teams are 22 Beats & G3O.
22 Beats are from ITE Macpherson & Bishan.
G3O is a crew who have performed & won comps before also.

So yeah, mostly the crews who joined the comp are very experience.
But we did our best. Eventhough we did cocked up here & there.
But it's okay. (: Cos we won 3rd!!! Omg!!! I'm super duper happy.
Nonetheless, I'm so happy & proud of my other half, B' Delicious 2 did well.
Yes, Minah Dangdut & Minah Sidekrump, u guys did well.
U've improved since the last time I saw u guys dance for e 1st time. (:

These are the rest of the pics taken. (:

`Feel Afresh__*

2009-04-01T14:55:00.004+08:00

Finally! After the much awaiting of exam results!
Oh well. I didn't do so well as last semester.
Last term I had all 'A's. But this term I have 2 'A's & 1 'B'.
So yeah. I had 'B' for The Communcation Curriculum (TCC).
I had 'A's for Discovery Curriculum & also Public Relations.
So the average GPA of both semester is 3.86. Huhu.
Pls, this is the fact okay. I'm not fooling u guys.

Anyway, two days ago I've received Mrs Regina's call.
I've been selected to go to the Cambodia for 2wks!!! (:
It's gonna be a new experience for me.
Since all these while I'm doing only local community service.

So yeah. On Sunday, I've msged Mr Cho.
I told him that I wanted to withdraw from Dance Elective.
Cos when I think back again, I don't think I'll be able to manage.
I don't want to risk my studies over dance. (:
I really hope I've made a good decision.

Anyway, I'm trying to keep myself busy.
With NDP, dance competition & also preparing for school.
& yes! Phonics course, storytelling for primary 1.
Next term only 2 exam papers I think.

I think in some ways I'm happier this way.
No stress of thinking another someone.
Instead, I just have to think about my studies & dance.
& also I'll be able to go out with friends.
Example just this holiday alone I've watched 3movies!
All with Wiwik! Haha! Lol. & also played pool. yesterday.
The 3movies are:-
Street Fighter(18.03.09); 5.20pm; Cathay Wdl.
Coming Soon(20.03.09); 7.35pm; GV Bishan.
The Unborn(29.03.09) ; 4.25pm; Cathay Wdl. (:

I managed to buy the Everlast bag one the same day as I watched Unborn.

It was on sale. $39.90! Oh whee! Hehe.

& also Nike shoes. Hehe. My mum is so nice these past few days. =D

That's all for now peeps. Toodles!

`Dance Auditions__*

2009-03-01T11:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I went for the auditions at ITE Simei.
Yes. Dance Elective's auditions. (:
I reached there with Farhana at about 9.05am.
So the whole thing actually started about 10am?

We had about an hour latin dance class.
The choreographer/instructor is Philippines.
So after that the audition starts.
We had to do some contemporary steps & warm-ups.

& here is the gd news! I got through! Whee!!!
I'm in Elective Dance. How great is that?
I'll be in NDP Dance as well!!! Wuhoo!
I got the bag I wanted. (:

So yeah. More updates soon alright?

`Hurting Deep Inside__*

2009-02-17T22:57:00.002+08:00

Oh god... I swear I feel like breaking down right now.
Tears rolling down my cheeks. I'm so so hurt.
What's wrong with me? I don't know.
Yesterday I had a dream he left me cos he had sum1 else.

& today, we had this HUGE quarrel. I couldn't take it anymore.
Why can't he put in effort? Do I have to tell him everything?
What to do. How I feel. EVERYTIME? Haish.
I told him like a zillion times. Why can't he take the initiative?

Seriously. Sometimes I purposely nvr msg & waited to see.
Yes to see whether he will find me. But he didn't.
The worst is when we quarrel, he didn't even try to stop me.
God. It hurts so much. It's like as if he nvr care for me at all.

Even when I said I need some time to think abt us.
He didn't try to stop me. He didn't come & look for me.
Damnit. All those msges & calls for nothing.
Why do I have to cry again? ... Haish.

It hurts so much to see him like this.
& it hurts so much also if I were to let him go.
& I'm so so confused right now. Pls help me.
Allah, pls give me strength to go through this again.
I really can't imagine myself if I were to go thru another break-up AGAIN...

`Hearts__*

2009-02-15T09:45:00.001+08:00

Bby, I just wanna say I love you alot.
I'm blessed to have you bby.
Eventhough we always quarrel, but it's okay.
I hope it will help us to understand each other better.

I hope that one day we can really be happy.
For now, we understand each other better.
& I hope it will make the love between us grows fonder.
How I wish I can always hug & cuddle with you darls.

Bby, I'm really sorry for what had happened.
Please don't ever give up on our love.
I hope we can make the best of each other.
Muacks. I hearts you so so much.

P.S: Dateline in 3days time. Oh God!!!

Qida kangen banget sama Kai...

`New Lyfe__*

2009-02-08T11:30:00.004+08:00

Hello people!!! Haha! I know my blog has rot for quite some time. =P
Cos I've not been using comp regularly since school started.
Anyway, today is my dad's birthday! He's 59 already. Hehs.
Both my parents are not at home. So yeah.
I'll be going to library later to study with Skinah, Wik & Na.
Okay, so now, I'll be updating you on stories since the start of 2009.
Pls don't sleep ok? Haha. (: Thank you for your cooperation. =D

Yesterday(07/02), I went out to celebrate my 1mth with dearie.
Well, we had our downs at first. After that, everything was ok. (:
So we met up at around 5.15pm when it was supposed to be 4pm.
Thanks eh dear. Huhu. :( We proceeded to town.

We went our separate ways from his friends. Hehs.
Walk here & there. Omg! I like this Nike shoes!
But he said it's not that nice. Damnit!
I don't care, I still want it. Haha!

We went to eat at KFC cos he WANTED to eat CHICKEN so much.
Haha. End up he bought Zinger meal WITH TWO piece CHICKENS.
Omg! No wonder he got such a cute belly! Haha! =P
Nvm. After that, we watched Bride Wars at Cineleisure. (:
Anyway, his asthma came back. I'm kinda worried though. :(
Bby, rest well okay? Pls2 take your medicine regularly.

Friday(06/02), the dateline for Ms Pearl's assignment.
Omg! We handed in late thanks to some of the 'punctual' classmates.
I'm still worried whether we are going to have a 1grade drop.
It's not fair for some of us who came early & ready. :( Haish...

Wednesday(04/02), the hectic day for me. Haha.
First of all, dance performance for CNY. Oh god! Cock up!
Then, we had our ECH Filming. It was quite lame though.
After that, we had S&W THEORY test. Quite easy lars.

After school, Wik, Na & me went to Vista Park to do assignment.
But the table was wet. So we went to the RC instead.
It was quite stressful when the UNDERAGE kids were making noise etc.
Anyway, I met up with dearie after that. His house was just nearby. LOL.

Tuesday(03/02), dearie came to my house to accompany me do my assignment.
Hehe. So sweet of him right? Thank you so much syg. I appreciate it.
He left about 10pm & I sent him off to Lot 1.
We managed to sit down & talked for a while. (:

Saturday(31/01), my nephew's 1st birthday! Getting cuter day by day!
I went to meet up dearie 4pm at Wdl platform to go to CT Hall.
We walked around while waiting to meet up with Na & Ayie.
We went to Chingay parade & post party! Whee!
I nvr regretted going there cos it was so fun!!! (:
It's a new experience for me aite. Hehe.

(23/01-27/01)
23/01-After I came from Zoo, I went home & packed my bags.
I went off to sleepover at bestie's house. (: Hehe.
To cut the story short, I spend the few days with her, Indra & him. (:
27/01-First time he came over to my house. Hehe.

During this period of time, I was busy doing Big Book also.
Oh god! It was damn tiring lars. Haha.
I hope I don't need to do another one again. LOL.

(12/01), Karaoke time!!! Haha. He just got his pay.
So we went to the Cashbox beside Forum.
It was just me, Na, him & Wan.
Yes Na. I know that Wan's voice is SO SUPER nice. (:

(10/01), first date with him? Haha. LOL.
I know I'm very open-minded with my friends.
I always talking dirty things with them etc.
BUT believe it or not, me & him was very shy lars.
It took us quite some time to hold each other's hands! (:
Anyway, I watched Yes Man with him & we ate Mac AGAIN.
Hehe. We managed to explore various places uh seys.

(07/01), the memorable date. We're together!!!
Finally, after knowing 2yrs. Haha!
(06/01), CCA Open House performance at ITE Macpherson.
He came down to support me! Wheee! (:

Okay2. That's all for now. I guess you'll be sleeping by now. =D

P.S: I hope that I'll nvr lose you like how I lose the others.
Bby, you're so different & I hope you stay the way you are.
You always there for me when I need someone.
Always there to give me strength & encourage me.

Yes bby, I know I'm always hurting you when I'm sad & mad.
But one thing for sure, I nvr meant those words.
I'm really happy to be with you. Cos you nvr fail to make my day.
You nvr fail to cast a smile upon me when I'm down & crying.
You nvr fail to bring joy & laughter into my life.

Bby, you're everything to me. I love the way you are.
You're belo & yet so cute to me. & also very lame. Hahs.
I love the way you wiped away my tears for me.
I love the way you comfort me when I'm down.
I love the way you cuddle me into your arms.
I love the way you always tease & tickles me.
In short, I love every bit of you honey.

I love you so much. Yes you, Muhammad Khairul Anwar. (:

`Blessed__

2008-08-24T17:25:00.003+08:00

From Left...Top: Wiwik, Fairuz, Sakinah & Me.

Bottom: Yaz, Atiqah & Khai.

I'm blessed. Cos finally I really felt so happy.

Family. Friends. I felt so complete.

I love my baby nephew. He's so super cute. (:

I love his photoshoot! (: Awesome!

Friends? I have super duper classmates!
Except for some. Hehes. (Better not to mention who)
Wiwik! Don't mention about revising in your blog please.
I have not even start revising yet! I'm more worse! :(

Wiwik- The gf who is easily paranoid & soft-hearted.
Someone who I love to disturb when crossing the road. (:
Sakinah- The gf who pisses me off everyday. Hahas.
Someone who looks decent but can be quite mischievious.
Fairuz- The gf who sometimes partner with Sakinah & irritates me.
My dance partner in CCA. Lols.
Atiqah & Khai- The lovebirds I have to see everyday. =P

Anyway, I'm going to wrap up what happened this whole week.

Last Sunday(17/08) I finally managed to went out with him & celebrate! (:
I went to Orchard & bought the Adidas slippers that I wanted! He too!
He got for me a bag & I got for him pants. (:
We went to watched movie at Cineleisure. Yayness!!! =P
We went to Vivo & then IMM to have our dinner at Secet Recipe. (:
We bought another slippers over there too! Hahas

Monday(18/08) I just started blogging again.

Tuesday(19/08) Sakinah, Fairuz & me followed Wiwik to Bugis.
She wanted to buy a sling bag. She bought a Zinc sling bag at $38.
In the end, Fairuz & me shop for things also.
I bought shoes ($15), dress ($10) & 2shirts($16).
Fairuz bought a cap at $12. Cheap right?

Wednesday(20/08) What a nice date. (: 20/08/2008)
I had report writing test today. It was sucks big time.
After school, Fairuz & me went to gym. Hahas.

Thursday(21/08) I had email writng test today.
After school, Fairuz & Wiwik accompanied me to Ikea.
After that we went to this shopping centre to have our dinner.
Instead, we went to Billabong shop & it has 50-70% sale!
Wiwik & me went to but the wallet! Whee!!!

Friday(22/08) My CCA had a rehearsal at ITE Macpherson.
We got through it. So we'll be havinf practices Mon-Thurs next week.
Oh my god! Hahas. Friday will be our performance aite.
After the rehearsal, he fetched me at Paya Lebar MRT & we played pool.

Saturday(23/08) I went out with my mum, niece & nephew.
We went to Paya Lebar as my mum need to buy medicine.
It's for my niece. It's a homoeopathy medicine.
After that, We took taxi & head off to Vivo.
My mum wanted to buy the shoes over there.
After that, we took 188 & went to Lot 1 to buy food before went home.
Overall, it's a tiring day. Try taking care of my nephew & you'll know. =P

I think that's all for now. I'm quite tired already.
I've just finished doing my research on Spina Bifida. (:

`Mishshawtie-qida__

2008-08-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

It's about me. Yes me. (:
So far, so good. Life is ok.
However, lately, it's been quite tiring.
Tests here & there. Exams coming up.
Two of my projects are already done. (:
It's been handed up on 1st & 7th August.

School is ok. Just hoping to get A's for exams.
Friends? Especially classmates. Hahas.
I have to say they are very unpredictable.
At one point of time, they are my friends.
And now, they are like my enemies? Or worst nightmare?

A lot of backstabbing here & there.
A lot of sarcasm & critism. A lot of hypocrites.
Anyway, I couldn't care less anymore.
I don't mind losing a friend who is not worth to be one.

Love life. So far, it's been good. Lots of compromise.
More understanding. More happiness.
I hope it's gonna be like this forever.
Yesterday with you was awesome. (:
Adidas slippers rocks aite darl? <3 you.

That's all for now. Toodles.

. Silent Screams .

`Anxious__*

`Left Aside__*

`Mixed feelings__*

`My Silent Screams__*

`Speechless__*

`Left Alone__*

`Finally it's OVER!__*

`Finally!__*

`Mixed feelings__*

`Imy__*

`Hurting Deep Inside__*

`Love__*

`Dance photos__*

`Best Day Ever__*

`Feel Afresh__*

`Dance Auditions__*

`Hurting Deep Inside__*

`Hearts__*

`New Lyfe__*

*`Blessed__*

*`Mishshawtie-qida__*

`Blessed__

`Mishshawtie-qida__