Oh god... I swear I feel like breaking down right now.
Tears rolling down my cheeks. I'm so so hurt.
What's wrong with me? I don't know.
Yesterday I had a dream he left me cos he had sum1 else.

& today, we had this HUGE quarrel. I couldn't take it anymore.
Why can't he put in effort? Do I have to tell him everything?
What to do. How I feel. EVERYTIME? Haish.
I told him like a zillion times. Why can't he take the initiative?

Seriously. Sometimes I purposely nvr msg & waited to see.
Yes to see whether he will find me. But he didn't.
The worst is when we quarrel, he didn't even try to stop me.
God. It hurts so much. It's like as if he nvr care for me at all.

Even when I said I need some time to think abt us.
He didn't try to stop me. He didn't come & look for me.
Damnit. All those msges & calls for nothing.
Why do I have to cry again? ... Haish.

It hurts so much to see him like this.
& it hurts so much also if I were to let him go.
& I'm so so confused right now. Pls help me.
Allah, pls give me strength to go through this again.
I really can't imagine myself if I were to go thru another break-up AGAIN...
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Bby, I just wanna say I love you alot.
I'm blessed to have you bby.
Eventhough we always quarrel, but it's okay.
I hope it will help us to understand each other better.

I hope that one day we can really be happy.
For now, we understand each other better.
& I hope it will make the love between us grows fonder.
How I wish I can always hug & cuddle with you darls.

Bby, I'm really sorry for what had happened.
Please don't ever give up on our love.
I hope we can make the best of each other.
Muacks. I hearts you so so much.

P.S: Dateline in 3days time. Oh God!!!

Qida kangen banget sama Kai...
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Hello people!!! Haha! I know my blog has rot for quite some time. =P
Cos I've not been using comp regularly since school started.
Anyway, today is my dad's birthday! He's 59 already. Hehs.
Both my parents are not at home. So yeah.
I'll be going to library later to study with Skinah, Wik & Na.
Okay, so now, I'll be updating you on stories since the start of 2009.
Pls don't sleep ok? Haha. (: Thank you for your cooperation. =D

Yesterday(07/02), I went out to celebrate my 1mth with dearie.
Well, we had our downs at first. After that, everything was ok. (:
So we met up at around 5.15pm when it was supposed to be 4pm.
Thanks eh dear. Huhu. :( We proceeded to town.

We went our separate ways from his friends. Hehs.
Walk here & there. Omg! I like this Nike shoes!
But he said it's not that nice. Damnit!
I don't care, I still want it. Haha!

We went to eat at KFC cos he WANTED to eat CHICKEN so much.
Haha. End up he bought Zinger meal WITH TWO piece CHICKENS.
Omg! No wonder he got such a cute belly! Haha! =P
Nvm. After that, we watched Bride Wars at Cineleisure. (:
Anyway, his asthma came back. I'm kinda worried though. :(
Bby, rest well okay? Pls2 take your medicine regularly.

Friday(06/02), the dateline for Ms Pearl's assignment.
Omg! We handed in late thanks to some of the 'punctual' classmates.
I'm still worried whether we are going to have a 1grade drop.
It's not fair for some of us who came early & ready. :( Haish...

Wednesday(04/02), the hectic day for me. Haha.
First of all, dance performance for CNY. Oh god! Cock up!
Then, we had our ECH Filming. It was quite lame though.
After that, we had S&W THEORY test. Quite easy lars.

After school, Wik, Na & me went to Vista Park to do assignment.
But the table was wet. So we went to the RC instead.
It was quite stressful when the UNDERAGE kids were making noise etc.
Anyway, I met up with dearie after that. His house was just nearby. LOL.

Tuesday(03/02), dearie came to my house to accompany me do my assignment.
Hehe. So sweet of him right? Thank you so much syg. I appreciate it.
He left about 10pm & I sent him off to Lot 1.
We managed to sit down & talked for a while. (:

Saturday(31/01), my nephew's 1st birthday! Getting cuter day by day!
I went to meet up dearie 4pm at Wdl platform to go to CT Hall.
We walked around while waiting to meet up with Na & Ayie.
We went to Chingay parade & post party! Whee!
I nvr regretted going there cos it was so fun!!! (:
It's a new experience for me aite. Hehe.

(23/01-27/01)
23/01-After I came from Zoo, I went home & packed my bags.
I went off to sleepover at bestie's house. (: Hehe.
To cut the story short, I spend the few days with her, Indra & him. (:
27/01-First time he came over to my house. Hehe.

During this period of time, I was busy doing Big Book also.
Oh god! It was damn tiring lars. Haha.
I hope I don't need to do another one again. LOL.

(12/01), Karaoke time!!! Haha. He just got his pay.
So we went to the Cashbox beside Forum.
It was just me, Na, him & Wan.
Yes Na. I know that Wan's voice is SO SUPER nice. (:

(10/01), first date with him? Haha. LOL.
I know I'm very open-minded with my friends.
I always talking dirty things with them etc.
BUT believe it or not, me & him was very shy lars.
It took us quite some time to hold each other's hands! (:
Anyway, I watched Yes Man with him & we ate Mac AGAIN.
Hehe. We managed to explore various places uh seys.

(07/01), the memorable date. We're together!!!
Finally, after knowing 2yrs. Haha!
(06/01), CCA Open House performance at ITE Macpherson.
He came down to support me! Wheee! (:

Okay2. That's all for now. I guess you'll be sleeping by now. =D

P.S: I hope that I'll nvr lose you like how I lose the others.
Bby, you're so different & I hope you stay the way you are.
You always there for me when I need someone.
Always there to give me strength & encourage me.

Yes bby, I know I'm always hurting you when I'm sad & mad.
But one thing for sure, I nvr meant those words.
I'm really happy to be with you. Cos you nvr fail to make my day.
You nvr fail to cast a smile upon me when I'm down & crying.
You nvr fail to bring joy & laughter into my life.

Bby, you're everything to me. I love the way you are.
You're belo & yet so cute to me. & also very lame. Hahs.
I love the way you wiped away my tears for me.
I love the way you comfort me when I'm down.
I love the way you cuddle me into your arms.
I love the way you always tease & tickles me.
In short, I love every bit of you honey.

I love you so much. Yes you, Muhammad Khairul Anwar. (:
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