Well, here I am, back again after 2months.

The reasons for not updating, busy or just plain lazy.

Okay, right now, I am really down.

So before these tears really begin to control me,

I should as well, start typing and let it out.



I don't know why am I so XTRA emotional the past few days.

Is it because of PMS or just because I was expecting too much?

I was obviously counting to my birthday since last month.

I thought I will be able to celebrate it at least with someone.

Anyone. Family, friends. Doesn't have to be someone special.



But well, to my own disappointment, none.

I know I'm used to not celebrating it.

But hey, I do have feelings. I do want to feel special.

It's been like years since I really went out and celebrate my birthday.



I really wanted this to be special. Since it's my 21st.

I purposely made no plans. Just in case.

But all I did was I went to school for my OA & phonics course.

I went home after that. Still having no plans.

Wiwik & Sakinah did gave me a surprise at the MRT.

Still, it didn't managed to bring my spirits up again.



I went home. Mum was there watching TV as usual.

I couldn't be bothered anymore. Cos I was on the verge of crying.

So I just locked up my room & sleep the whole evening.

Woke up at night to watch my favourite show & eat.

I went back to my room & tried to sleep but failed to do so.

I kept on thinking & thinking till about 2+am.


I felt so NOT special. To even anyone.
Even he, did not make any time for me. Haish.
So here I am, wishing myself a 'HAPPY' 21st birthday 2days ago.
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